::Mcmana nak dptkan perut yg kempis?::

Wokay, serious aku ada masalah berat badan yang melampau. Serious. Last aku pg wedding, Ieta tanya pasal double chin aku. Don't worry, Ieta. I'm ok lah. Jgn ingat sHa terasa tau. Which is betul pun apa yg Ieta cakap sebab b4 that dah beberapa org tegur benda yang sama. Then this morning, si Ramesh tgk pic aku masa kat Unitar dulu dia terkejut tgk aku kurus. Yes, kurus. Then what he said is, I like this pic but now what u need to do is kecik kan bahagian ni. Bahagian ni adalah PERUT. Aku mcm kene tempek gambar kat sini ker? Yes, perut aku mcm preggy lady yang dlm 4/5 bulan. Gila besar, segala lemak2 dah naik? I dunno. Dr Unitar ke TM ke HP ke Atos Origin badan aku membesar bagaikan JUARA angkat besi. Dulu makan 1 hr 5 kali relax je, perut maintain kempis. D***... Tadi aku pergi Tesco shopping brg dapur terserempak dgn Alang, Aunty aku. Dia kata aku makin tembam menjadi2. Pekerja dia pun leh mengiyakan sbb dulu biasa nampak aku. So now, aku rasa aku mcm orang gemuk bukan chubby lagi. Ini adalah kebenaran, satu hari nak pergi keje berkali2 tukar baju. .Even tho nak kuar. Sebab aku takmo nmpk mcm preggy lady. Siap chin up & tummy tuck lagi bila jalan, taknak nampak buncit sebuncit2 nya.

So sila cadangkan diet plan yg sangat berkesan pada aku yg mudah terpengaruh dgn Ice cream and makanan yg sedap2 ni. Owh, sape nak teman setiap hari pergi work out pagi2 and ptg2? IF pg sorang2 tu yg rasa malas. Dulu kat KJ ada Liza. or Frq (terpaksa gak sebut).If dgn Liza, sambil jogging cuci mata. So motivate skit. Then everyday jalan kaki about 1/2 kilometer pergi n balik yg mana jumlah pergi balik dr Unitar adalah dlm 4 kilometer tambah singgah pergi Giant lagi, memang tak berpeluang lemak2 ni nak berkembang dlm badan aku.

So sapa? sapa?

::I found this on my cubicle::

Erk!! aku rasa tak payah la letak ni kat cubicle. Dah tempek nama & phone number aku sudah kat board tuh. Tp pandai Kak June cari gambar Fire Marshall. "Hot Fire Marshall". Hehehe..

Put on weight again. Bila nak kurus ni? Elok2 maintain turun few Kilos naik utk few weeks plak. Tolong saya ada problem kat perut saye. Tolong..Tolong.. Suggest la something. Macam² dah try ni. Nak ikut The Biggest Loser punya diet program or exercise, mau pengsan.

Ajula nama sebenar dah kahwin lah. Akhirnya saya dapat jumpa Encik Sidi awak yerk. Hopefully berkekalan hingga akhir hayat.

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::The truth is H.U.R.T::

I don't understand at all. I feel like want to CRY and let it out. But I just can't. I don't know. I don't know what to do. I hope someone can advise me. Now, I'm in silent mode. Just because I don't know what to say. Am I S.T.u.P.I.D?

This post similar like ---> HATE. But this 1 is dedicated to some1 else.

::Hari2 yg tak berapa nak okay::

Owh ini rasanya kali ketiga or kedua demam bagai nak rak. Yang tak best nya time nak tido hidung tersumbat, time dok diam tgk movie or on the phone terbatuk mcm datuk nenek. Awak memang lemah, ayesha.! pg la amik ubat apa2 kat clinic yg bg awak tak demam selalu dlm setahun. Owh, this time punya demam mcm marabahaya skit. Last week keluar with Haz, lepak kat Alamanda. Time nak beli KFC tu lah dia ckp kwn2 keje dia kene H1N1, ada yg kene quarantin. Aku? Mcmana? Dengan harapan berdoa dia tak kene. If dia kene potential is there. Time tu jugak dia kata badan rasa tak best mcm demam. Ishh budak ni, memang lah. tapi nak bergossip punya pasal dia hentam lepak jugak. So, last Monday bergegas sepantas yg boleh ke Klinik Kita, Saujana Impian clinic favorite tuh.. Alhamdullilah, I'm free from this VIRUS..shhuh..shhuh..p jauh2..

Asal nak study je ada je dugaan. Pg la mana2 pun. Tak mcm kat U dulu. So skang aku panic mcmana nak study ni . Jeje kata just buat exam paper. Ramesh pun ckp mcm tuh. Masalahnyer soklan panjang sgt, so kene baca dua tiga kali br paham. Takut..takut..nak pass..nak pass.takut lagi..Then mcm cepat lupa. Dah tau jawapan dia apa, then bila nak pikir balik jwpn dia susah betul nak ingat. Apasat? 5 days left, u better study, Ayesha!! Tadi headache mcm nak pecah kepala. Tak penah kene mcm tuh. Mkn panadol tak jalan jugak. Nak mkn ubat migrain tuh, ibu takde tadi. So tadi br minta, now lega.. Ishh.apa yg aku fikir pun tak tau.

Okay, lagi 1 month nk puasa. LV mcm menjauh dr aku. Tak boleh jadi ni. Ces.. I put on weight again. Boleh rasa, especially tang perut. Kira awal 2007 badan naik menjadi2. Dulu maintain 53-55kg. tak pun 55-57kg. Tp dulu if dpt berat mcm tu kira dah happy, certain org risau sebab mcm berat. Dulu keding. Ada certain orang tak suka tgk aku kurus. Keding la, flat chest la. If pakai baju color hitam, confirm la ada yg lagi komen.

2004/2005

2006/2007
2008/2009

Can u see the different? Okay, now got flabby arms, tummy somemore. It's getting bigger & bigger. Uwaaa..control mcmana pun, susah nak hilang. Angkat dumble? Checked. Jogging? Checked. Itupun, sebulan sekali..ahahah.. Tak mcm dulu. 3 times per week. Herbalife? Checked. Tapi lama2 malas nak buat shake. Kan senang if ada 3 in 1. Ada cara paling senang nak kurus? Now shopping for new tops pun tak best. Hilang confident aku. Owh, aku tgk The Biggest Loser tu mmg menarik. So, weekdays if tak keje aku tgk ulangan show tu kat Hallmark. At least semangat nak kurus tu still ada..Heee..

Erm, still remember about the guy, which is my colleague yg selalu complain pasal this & that kat aku? That day after ckp pasal lengan aku tuh, now asking me to get new hair cut! WTF!! GOD, tension nya aku. Apa masalah dia pun aku tak tau. Teammate yg lain okay je, ada yg suka lagi. But this one, suka2 hati ckp this n that. Ni aku lah. Not ur GF, not ur BFF, not an actress, not a supermodel. Suka hati la aku nak ada rupa or style mcmana pun. Tlg..tlg jauhkan dia dr aku weh.. Rimas..

Kinda busy this week. Study mode. Training mode. Exam mode. Silent mode. Wedding mode. Ha, pasal wedding, nak kene fikir pakai baju apa. Nak beli hadiah ape yerk? Pegi dgn sape since Mr BF dah balik Jhr time tuh. Wawa! disebabkan awak pun cr partner nk pg wedding Ajula., jom kita p sama.. Oh ya, Ajula. Kiranya this coming Sunday 1st time la jugak saye jumpa Hubby awak yg selama ni berusaha tackle awak bersungguh2. Saye kagum ni dgn dia..!!

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::Kajang town sucks!!::

It sucks on weekends, especially on Saturday. Macam hampeh tak ingat. Nak pg tmpt yg sepatutnya senang dpt parking pun, jammed giler. D***! Mood dah la tak baik. Pasal tu je, pending semua benda yg sepatutnya sha buat for today..

::Politik LGTC Exam::

I feel so stupid lately, when I think about myself, about what happen all around me. I feel insecure right now. I dunno y, suddenly this feeling come to me. I'm not happy with you, you, and you. Ha.. sudah, what happen?

You can't run from politic. Wo..politik kat office dasyat. Mcm politik dlm kerajaan.. Who do you need to trust? Kita pun terjebak dlm situasi ini. Boleh dikatakan kita jd tukang dengar, tukang mengiyakan this & that. Ahaks.. So now, I don't know who's wrong & who's right, who can be trusted & who's not. For the past 3 years being as a employee to 3 different companies, this is the first time, first time guys I can see it clearly. Mcmana rasanya berada dlm kelompok ni. The best part is, the mastermind is a guy. I thought, yg suka gossip2 ni adalah perempuan. Ada yg lg dasyat. Urgh, get me out of here!!! I don't want to involve. Owh, sha blame myself jugak. Sometimes terlalu out spoken, main sound je apa yg tak puas hati. Dunno, maybe nanti diorg pijak kepala kita? So, avoid that. Full Stop!

Last week, I went to LGTC secret's TT, which is tempatnya kat Pantai Morib. Mostly, nak makan ikan bakar. I think about 45 cars join convoy ni. Owh, sempat jumpa Kak Yuni, Kak Ida, Ieta, Kak Siti, Akma, Mas & Aida. Meen, MIA plak this time. Maybe dah start keje kot. This is the last minute plan for me & Mr BF. I thought I will miss this event, sebab Mr BF is in JB. Bu he drove all d way from JB to Kjg, just for me. Ahaha..Confirm la sHa cakap nk pg Secret's TT kan, eventho dia kata ada keje. Thanks a lot, B.

I just finished my Microsoft training and will take the exam on 25th July. I'm freaking out. Dunno where to start. Wish me luck! Wish me luck!

::Windows 7::

http://windows.microsoft.com/en-us/windows7/products/tour

Anyone thinking to change to new OS? This is the latest OS from Microsoft. My trainer just show us this OS and all the features. Its cool!! And it will officially launch on October 2009. I'm thinking to switch to this one.