::Terasa nak blogging balik?::

Banyak masa ketew?? Salam, it's been a while. Busy with kids tu normal lah eh. Siang for sure busy with new job. Last November I left my almost 8 years company Atos and moved to T-systems. Alhamdulillah, but I still love Atos the most. Sebab surrounding tak stress kot. :P I don't want to talk more about this. 

So started my preloved IG @prelovedby.sha to sell my preloved items. Nak move inshaAllah tak lama lagi. Nak buang sayang or bagi orang mcm rugi. Ahahah. So sell it is the best way. I sell my prelove baju as well. Like MANGO, H&M, Variante, Melissa. I help my friend to sell their designer bag too. I tak lah banyak, ada 1/2 to let go jugak. Like previously addicted to Sugarscarf, pun banyak dah let go. Alhamdulillah. Now, slowly pakai balik my own tudung which I called Ahseyaa. Stay tune about this. InshaAllah bila ada rezeki, I will announce. Started since 2013 but slowly to move another phase. Doakan for me. 

Kids Alhamdulillah, makin cerdik dgn keletah diorang. I feel blessed,  Ya Allah with these 2. Thank you. I hope I can be a good mom to them till end of time. 

Both of them down with fever since last week. Speedy recovery Sayang Ibu. Paling risau bila kakak tak sihat. Sebab dia akan flat. Anak ibu mesti kuat. Bila tak sihat, both of them nak Ibu. Bila sihat nak abah, sebab abah can layan her play sometimes. Ibu tak larat, nak patah pinggang rasanye. Hee.. I would love to share dlm blog how I handle my 2 kids yang kerap admit to hospital. How I handle my stress. I really harap last June was the last time diorang warded. I really hope diorang kuat lepas ni. Will share in my next post. Amin.. Amin for their good health. 

::It's been a while::

Wow.. punya lama tak update. Assalamualaikum... Hi... Blog tempat Sha nak taip ape je Sha nak. So here I am again. Curi masa a lil bit to update. :)

Dah nak masuk October. My birth month. Counting days jugak to leave Atos. Yes, I'm leaving Atos. My last day would be on 27th. After 7 years and 3 months. Fuh, setia kot.

Hectic month for me. Zaffran admitted for 3 times. Since July, Aug and Sept. 3 times in a row. Tapi Kakak admitted dulu. Kakak batuk selsema for few days. Amik neb, but then hard to breath balik. tak sedap hati, hubby bawa pergi KPJ and terus kene tahan dgn Paed dia. Dr Meena mmg dah biasa dgn dia since dia baby lagi. Kene pneumonia. Dr tahan dia sbb masa dia datang hr tu lung dia mcm tak pump oxygen, bdn dia mcm meringkut. Not sure how to explain. So , kakak admitted to KPJ for 7 times. Kawan cakap, tak boleh malu anak kerap masuk hospital. Nak buat mcmana. Next 2 days, Zaffran plak admitted for third time. wheezing, batuk teruk sangat. So berkampung lagi kat sane. Cuti mmg dah takde. Just imagine brp kali tahun ni anak2 masuk sepital. So Dr Meena requested Zaffran and Rayhana to be admitted in 1 room. Senang kot dia nak check dua2.

A week after , ada follow up check up, Ray is feeling better but Zaffran, batuk still ada. Haze satu, nursery budak batuk jgn ckp. Tp nak buat mcmana, kene antar jugak. Sian Zaffran. I tak pernah buat home remedy guna bawang putih and baby oil. I should try la balik nnti and apply to Zaffran. Anak2 Ibu, feel better soon okay. Mwahhhhs..

:: Updates::

Updates.. tapi type ntah bapa line je. Selamat Berpuasa, lovelies. Alhamdulillah, so far puasa penuh lagi.. ;) Tak tahan nye, lately sakit pinggang ke bawah sampai kaki rasa lemah. Tak sure kenapa. Thought nak pergi klinik balik office nanti. Lepas delivered hr tuh, mmg whole body sakit. Kejap sakit sini kejap sakit situ.

Alhamdulillah, Zaffran dah 3 months. Cepat je rambut dia panjang. Mama ngah dia cakap rambut durian. Manja, jangan cakap. Bila tanya Alang kat nursery dia mcmana, dia okay je tidur tp memang la ada certain time dia mengamuk. Sometimes nak ajak borak, takde orang borak dengan dia jerit. Tp kat rumah mak oi manja ya rabbi. Berulit dgn Sha je. Minum jangan ckp. Asyik2 nak minum. Kehausan. Bukannya p main bola and puasa pun. :D 

Rayhana clever day by day. Dah cakap ayat yang panjang2. Bila we all cakap yang dia jarang dengar dia repeat balik. Nanti selang sehari dua kita dengar dia guna ayat tuh. Panggil orang mcm orang tua. Nenek..ooo nenek.. atuk oo atuk.. Oooo tak penah tinggal. Now suka dok belek accessories sha dlm bilik termasuk lah make up. Dia tau eye shadow tu pakai kat mata. Dah dok perati mak dia bersiap, sure dia hafal tu utk apa. Pandai count 1-10. ABC semua dia dah kenal. Alif Ba Ta dia slow skit. Asal nak ajar dia lari. Color2 like black, pink, purple, orange, yellow, green, white, blue dia kenal. Lain sha tak test lagi. Kadang bila dia nak makan pandai angkat tgn sendiri baca doa. Doa apa tak sure lagi. Dalam bahasa dia lah kan.. Cerita favorite, Marsha and the bear, Peppa Pig, Dibo, Hi-5 dia memilih. Dia suka Hi-5 yang ada Fely tuh. hikhik.. Bila kene marah pandai amik hati orang dengan kenyit mata. Kalau dia terlanggar orang dia cakap, sowy=sorry. Mcm dah  boleh start potty training sebab bila dia poo poo or pee dia akan cakap kat kita. Tapi lepas tu lah br cakap. Ish..ish.ishh.. Rayhana ni dia lagi suka belek cousin dia Luth Faheem dari adik dia sendiri Zaffran. She called him Afran. 

I put on weight a lot compare to lepas deliver Rayhana. Masa Rayhana tuh, perut susah gila kot nak naik. But this time, fuh cepat je. Sha kuat makan. Maybe sebab this time I bfeed more compare than last time. Dulu kat office tak pump pun. Just bf Rayhana bila balik office and pergi office. Tak engorge sangat dulu. This time, mmg kene rajin pump kat office. Hampeh nya, office ni takde tempat yang okay for bfeed mom. Now Sha pump dlm unused store room. Kesian tak? Kalau kat surau, kalau bukan masa orang busy solat like before zuhur, then okay. Kalau tak mcm segan je nak pump depan org ramai kat surau tuh. SO kesimpulannya, if you see me anywhere and  nampak mcm 4 months preggy, itu adalah sebab I ate a  lot. No, I mcm stop dulu nak preggy. Bagi budak2 ni besar dulu. 

Baju raya dah siap? This year baju raya biasa2 je. Early of the year kan Jakel Sale, beli kain and tempah kat orang. RTW dress pun tak beli. I pakai baju Variante yang I beli end of last year . Tak pakai lagi bj tuh. So ok lah. Tinggal nak cari bj budak2 ni. Baju girls ni mcm2 eh. Bila dah ada anak lelaki br perasan bj boy ni mcm bosan skit. Ahaahhaha.. 

Economy mcm tak menentu skang eh. But I still thinking to look for another job within Cyberjaya. Too long lah working with Atos. 7 years kot. Ke nak genapkan 10 years? Tak sanggup. Dpt jd SAHM pun best eh. 

Okay lovelies, happy fasting!

::Rengat::

Ok, as I told you before, I'm gonna tell you about this Rengat thingy.

Rengat ni normally orang kata kena kat orang yg bersalin anak kedua ke atas. Sakit dia mcm ada contraction lagi and kita rasa macam ada benda nak keluar lagi dari rahim kita. Scary eh.

So malam tuh, badan dah la menggigil, tak leh tido. Bila beralih badan mcm ada rasa something dlm perut bergerak. Lagi scary rasanye. I dok lah wondering apakah? Perut sakit. Cakap kat nurse, nurse kata rahim nak mengecut. Plus tadi Sha br pump, lagi rasa sakit.

So sakit berlanjutan selama 2 hari. Reda bila dah makan pain killer. Hari ketiga adalah hari kedua mengurut. Sakit berkurangan. Bila tukang urut sengkak, dia kata dah terletak dan mengecut dah. sama jugak masa mengurut hari ketiga. Tapi a week after that, Sha kene balik. Kali ni tergolek2 menangis. Pinggang dan pinggul sakit gila. Apakan lagi perut. Mcm ada benda berat bawah perut. Sambung makan panadol utk kurangkan sakit. Masa tu text tukang urut jeje minta datang tengok and urut kan balik. Kenapa tak minta tukang urut yg sama datang? Sebab rasa urutan dia ok2 saje. Tak mcm Kak Suzi, kakak yg urutkan Sha masa lepas deliver Rayhana. Terbaik, tapi dia dah balik Indon dengan cucu dia.  Selang 2 days, Kak Ema datang. Amik package skali dengan dia, berurut, dia masakkan air utk minum, buat air mandian and bertangas. Masa nak urut tu baru tahu rahim sha jatuh. So bermulalah episode nak sengkak balik rahim tuh. Ingatkan rasa mcm sebelum2 ni je. Tapi... nanges dulu... Sakit.. Kak Ema, sengkak slow keatas and berbunyi and terasa benda gerak okay. Gila.. Tu lah, lasak2 lagi lepas bersalin. Sha rasa tak lasak pun, tp Sha banyak bergerak sane sini. Plus laju je jalan.

Alhamdulillah, lepas last urut tu okay dah. Tak rasa sakit. Masa breastfeed Izz pun tak rasa berdenyut sangat. Masa abis pantang hr tu ada balas urutan as penutup pantang lah kiranya. Makcik yg urut tu cakap, rahim okay and terletak.

:Izz Zaffran & Experience bersalin di Kajang Plaza Medical Center (KPMC):

Alhamdulillah, sha selamat melahirkan baby boy on Friday, March 13th at 12.10pm. Alhamdulillah jugak Allah permudahkan semuanya untuk Sha dan makbulkan doa Sha untuk lahirkan Izz on Friday. Masa tu dah almost nak due dah. Punya lah risau takut overdue. So, a day before delivery date I asked hubby to bring me to Pavi. Mall exercise. Kebetulan I craved to eat at Tony Roma's and Caramel Frappe xtra drizzle. Yummeh.. Memang penat, but have to. Takut kena induce punya pasal sanggup jalan2 lagi even bdn dah x larat.

Mild contraction rasa around 1am. Tak consistent pun. Mcm bila ubah pergerakkan dah hilang. Tp dah ckp kat hubby rasa perut ni lain mcm. Dia xda kat umah. Around 4 bgn solat n baca surah maryam. Instinct kuat ckp mcm hr ni je nak deliver. After Subuh, rasa sakit dtg balik. Kuat dr yg sha rasa masa pukul 1 pg. But can tahan. Call hubby cakap mcm hr ni je nak bersalin. Sebab sakit yg consistent ada. Tp sha suruh je dia p meeting dia kul 10 dulu. Around 7 sumtin. Sakit mcm kuat n gap dia x lama. Around 7-10 minutes. Call hubby suruh dia balik skang. So hubby sampai around 8. Siap-siap and bgtau ibu abah dah nak bersalin rasanya. Nak pergi KPMC check. Minta maaf dgn ibu abah dah. Siap nangis2. Almaklumlah, i ni sensitive skit.

Arrived at KPMC dlm pukul 9.30am. Told front desk mcm nak bersalin and nak buat CTG and VE. So nurse datang and bawak naik 1st floor. Nurse pasang CTG belt dwkt perut and datang midwife utk buat VE. 2cm it is. Okay masa Rayhana dulu bila rasa sakit mcm tuh, dah 4cm. Ni lambat skit. Plus miwife cakap cervix tebal lagi. So nurse cakap kita warded. I chose deluxe package je. Asalkan single bed. 10.30am Dr Mimi datang kt labour room sebab dia baru deliverkan sorang patient dia kat labour room sebelah. Sha dgr jugak lah dia meneran and scary.  Masa kat Serdang dulu x dgr suara org lain nak bersalin. Maybe kebetulan time tu xda org nak deliver. So, Dr Mimi cakap result CTG so far cantik. Dia nak buat VE lagi. Dah 4cm. Erk, kejap jugak. Then datang midwife bg ubat utk buang air. Sape sembelit ke susah nak meneran ke silalah amik ubat ni. Ahahaha. Lepas masuk ubat tu terus nak p toilet. Tinnnngg.. Settled.

Mmg x dan nak masuk bilik sbb cepat je dilate. Hubby. Turun bawah breakfast jap. Pagi tu sha sempat mkn biskut, minum air milo and kurma. Masa hubby pergi bfast, contraction makin kuat. I called hubby suruh naik atas skang sbb contraction dah kuat. Plus x minta maaf kat dia lagi. :D  Hubby sampai and midwife masuk tanya sakit sgt ke? Nak pain killer? Ckp nak, etonox or pethidine. Rasanya dia bg pethidine. Jab kat muntut. Tp skit pun tak legakan rasa sakit tuh. Cuma lama2 rasa mengantuk skit. Tp dia mmg ckp ubat tu akan buat rasa mengantuk nnti. Around 11.30 sakit yg sangat lah dasyat. Tak henti2 baca ayat dr surah yunus. Hubby siap melawak, at the end kene tumbuk lah kene cubit lah. Sempat pesan kat dia bila sayang ckp kat B syg sakit sgt and nk teran terus pergi kat nurse. Betul2 lepas ckp mcm tuh, rasa mcm nak poo-poo and nak meneran. Perut dah mengeras gila. Nurse and midwife masuk. Nurse prepare brg2 while midwife buat VE lagi. Terus dia ckp panggil Dr Mimi. Nurse ckp Puan tarik nafas dalam2 lepas. Masa tu nak baca Lailahailaanta tu pun tercungap2. Dr Mimi sampai dah, kejap je. Dia ckp whenever you ready Fadia push ok. So bila contraction yg kuat sampai, sha push. X lepas. Hubby kali ni jd very supportive. Midwife ada dua org. Sorang tu my neighbour. Lagi lah i rasa mcm lega juga sbb ada org lain yg i kenal. Push kali kedua diorang kata kepala dah nk keluar. Dr Mimi guidance sgt lah helpful. Push kali ketiga push sekuat hati hampir nak keluar. Mmg terasa kepala kt bawah tuh. Hubby ckp kat telinga, push kuat lg skit je. Dah nampak baby.  Kali keempat push sekuat2 hati sgt, there u are. Baby terus nangis. Nurse tunjuk baby and confirmkan. So nurse bawak pergi bersihkan dia and utk hubby azankan n iqamatkan. This time my perineum tear sendiri. Tak digunting mcm masa Rayhana dulu. Tear tepi skit. Lepas Dr Mimi jahit, MA dtg bersihkan jahitan. Settle semua I moved to my room. Baby diorg ckp antar kejap lagi sebab nk bg injection. Tak lama pun tunggu dlm labour room nk masuk bilik. Delivered at 12.10pm kul 1pm  mcm tuh dh masuk bilik. 

This time post delivery badan sgt lemah okay. Maybe age one thing. Org kata deliver anak lelaki tenaga lebih skit. Baby masuk bilik n try to breastfeed. Dia latch tp susu tadak. Yg ada pun yg clear color yg likat. Sha bg je kt baby. Tp almaklumlah baby boy kan. Betul lah org kata kuat minum. Few minutes later, nurse masuk tanya ada susu tak Puan. I said no. Muka frust. Puan nak campur dulu tak?kita letak kat nursery. Takut dia lapar. Tanya hubby and hubby ckp ok lah. Tp sha ckp kt nurse Sha bawa breastpump. I will try pump banyak kali tonite. If ada Sha bg kat nurse minta bg kat baby nnti. Nurse ckp ok. So baby letak kat nursery dulu. Hubby suruh rest sebab sha mmg flat terus.

Ptg my parent dtg, terus cari kelibat Rayhana. Nampak dia sha terus nangis. Sha dok fikir cmana dgn dia nnti bila my attention dkt baby Izz je nanti. Kesian dia. Dia malu2 bila nampak Sha dan dia buat muka geram bila nampak baby. Geram dia ni lain mcm skit. Mau ditonyoh2 nyer  muka baby. Spent about 2 hours with Rayhana sbb Sha boleh balik pun besok.

Night time, mmg condition sha mcm worst skit. I can't sleep at all. Lepas keluar dr labour room, kesan ubat mmg ade and made me sleepy. Tp still tak boleh tido. Food dkt hospital tak termakan pun. So asked hubby to tapau nasi goreng biasa. Ubat dah makan but I still can't sleep. Hubby buatkan hot choc pun kononnye nk suruh tido lepas tu tak boleh. At the end, hubby keluar and minta ubat yg boleh buatkan sha tido. Nurse masuk and tanya condition sha. Perut sha sakit sangat. Mcm rasa contraction lagi. Then semua jari2 sha menggigil. Bila pegang something, mcm tak leh pegang lama. Headache. Dah tutup lampu, tv pun still can't sleep. I got painkiller tp still tak boleh kurangkan rasa sakit tuh. Around 2am something baru dapat tido. Bangun masa Subuh. Before tido tu sempat google cari kenapa Sha boleh rasa mcm tuh. Most of it pointing to Rengat. Not Rengit kat Johor tu okeh. I will share skit about Rengat nanti in my next post.

Morning, rasa sakit kurang. Doc Mimi datang at 8am, check mata ada blur ke tak? perut sakit lagi ke tak? Check rahim dah kecut ke tak. Bp results 3 kali okay dah dia kata. Compare to result lepas delivered baby. Almost 5 times amik BP lepas delivered, semuanya tinggi. At the end, merasa jugak makan ubat darah tinggi. Masa delivered Rayhana dulu semuanya okay je. Dr Mimi cakap lunch time boleh discharge dah. Lepas Paed check baby nanti. Alhamdulillah, sib baik boleh keluar awal. Ingat kan kene monitor sbb BP tinggi semalam. Tghari hubby settlekan bill and procedure for discharge. Around 2pm, we all discharged. So far, experience deliver dekat KPMC memang okay. Mula2 mcm fikir banyak kali jugak nak deliver kat sini sebab bila search experience deliver dgn Dr Mimi memang susah nak jumpa orang share on the net. Bila dah experience sendiri, Alhamdulillah, Dr Mimi okay sangat. Hubby pun kagum dengan skill dia. Whoever check up dkt KPMC and tgh consider Dr Mimi, I would suggest you to take her as your consultant. :D Deluxe room for me biasa2 je utk single bed. Tak lah segempak KPJ. But ko stay kejap je kan, so tak payah nak membazir. Kalau korang ada extra money and tak tau nak spend tang mana, kat KPMC ni korang boleh amik VIP room. Tu room yang cantik and sangat besar. Okay lovelies, see ya next time.

Izz Zaffran : Kekuatan & Kemenangan