It's been a while. MCO and everything ..

So, we are now in the MCO 2.0 phase. I didn't manage to blog last 2020. As well as the rest of 2019. So I guess I have some time before I make myself busy preparing for my professional certificate CompTIA Security+ in March, postponed from February 2021.

After on career break for almost 2 years since 2017, I managed to get back to the workforce last January 2019. I work as Windows 10 Technical support. I can't believe I still have the communication and technical skills as Technical support. I would say, I did good guys, and I the eldest lady in our department. Who cares. Until October 2019, I got an offer to join SCB again as a contractor. I took this opportunity to do again something that I love the most. So I was hired as Business Analyst for project migration but it only lasted for months. The project that we are supposed to go live in Q1 2020 stopped. Again, I got to work with my old team, SACM Ops team. I managed to stay with them for 18 months before my contract ended with SCB last December 2020. So sad. My line manager tried to convert me to permanent staff twice but Terrabit doesn't want to release me due to some clause which mentioned, I need to work with them for 2 years. I just don't understand. When my contract ended with SCB, my employer Terrabit ended my employment as well. Due to that, I am jobless until now. I got a permanent offer last time from Johnson Matthey, but again due to the clause mentioned by Terrabit, I need to pay 2 months' salary together a month notice period in order to join another company. This is ridiculous. They knew ahead SCB not going to extend my contract, still, they do this.   

But ALLAH is GREAT.  He has another plan for me. He gave another rizq to us. Yesterday I got unexpected news where I am expecting my number 4. Yes, I know. Some of you might think, you are not working but then you pregnant? I do worried about this. I was scared to tell my parents. To be honest, I don't expect as well as my husband and myself was planning and even track my cycle. Not sure what went wrong, we were looking at the tracker and thought what went wrong? We slowly accept this. When you did the first scanning and you saw the sac, what do you expect? You saw his/her heart beating. I am speechless, happy and I was crying. I really thought that I had PCOS (similar symptom) due to my hormone are imbalance. But turn out something bigger is coming. So we are thinking and switching our plan. Our life plan, how to manage our current situation. 

I've decided to do this test when I feel my body something wrong. I put on weight a lot even I less eat. Nausea attack suddenly came, I was sleepy even now still the same and extra tired. A missed period is not part of my symptom since I had an irregular period. My period came 2 months once okay. If anyone read this, help to pray for our health and all will be easy for us towards this journey, ya. Thanks.

::Expect Unexpected::

Just turns 10 weeks but my baby bump started to show.

This is something that I can expect to ve happen to me at this moment. Allah Maha Besar. Almost 2 months after my surgery I just got to know Im pregnant again. This would be my 4th pregnancy but I hope everything will be okay. I just notice it on my 7 weeks. Symptom lain sgt. Suddenly I keep nak pee and nausea yg teruk.

I thought my chance to get pregnant again low. Sbb masa my last surgery on Dec, Doctor yg perform scan dkt perut I nak check gallstone n gallblader tuh ckp my uterus berlipat. Plus since Oct period mmg lambat n x betul. So bila.period dtg lmbt, I tot sbb hormon. Turn out bila test terus positive line naik. Terang. Normally before this test nampak samar je. Masa MC, Ray and even Izz.

Maybe this time rezeki I dkt sini mungkin bukan benda lain. Hope Allah murahkan rezeki family. Thanks Allah.

:Izz Zaffran & Experience bersalin di Kajang Plaza Medical Center (KPMC):

Alhamdulillah, sha selamat melahirkan baby boy on Friday, March 13th at 12.10pm. Alhamdulillah jugak Allah permudahkan semuanya untuk Sha dan makbulkan doa Sha untuk lahirkan Izz on Friday. Masa tu dah almost nak due dah. Punya lah risau takut overdue. So, a day before delivery date I asked hubby to bring me to Pavi. Mall exercise. Kebetulan I craved to eat at Tony Roma's and Caramel Frappe xtra drizzle. Yummeh.. Memang penat, but have to. Takut kena induce punya pasal sanggup jalan2 lagi even bdn dah x larat.

Mild contraction rasa around 1am. Tak consistent pun. Mcm bila ubah pergerakkan dah hilang. Tp dah ckp kat hubby rasa perut ni lain mcm. Dia xda kat umah. Around 4 bgn solat n baca surah maryam. Instinct kuat ckp mcm hr ni je nak deliver. After Subuh, rasa sakit dtg balik. Kuat dr yg sha rasa masa pukul 1 pg. But can tahan. Call hubby cakap mcm hr ni je nak bersalin. Sebab sakit yg consistent ada. Tp sha suruh je dia p meeting dia kul 10 dulu. Around 7 sumtin. Sakit mcm kuat n gap dia x lama. Around 7-10 minutes. Call hubby suruh dia balik skang. So hubby sampai around 8. Siap-siap and bgtau ibu abah dah nak bersalin rasanya. Nak pergi KPMC check. Minta maaf dgn ibu abah dah. Siap nangis2. Almaklumlah, i ni sensitive skit.

Arrived at KPMC dlm pukul 9.30am. Told front desk mcm nak bersalin and nak buat CTG and VE. So nurse datang and bawak naik 1st floor. Nurse pasang CTG belt dwkt perut and datang midwife utk buat VE. 2cm it is. Okay masa Rayhana dulu bila rasa sakit mcm tuh, dah 4cm. Ni lambat skit. Plus miwife cakap cervix tebal lagi. So nurse cakap kita warded. I chose deluxe package je. Asalkan single bed. 10.30am Dr Mimi datang kt labour room sebab dia baru deliverkan sorang patient dia kat labour room sebelah. Sha dgr jugak lah dia meneran and scary.  Masa kat Serdang dulu x dgr suara org lain nak bersalin. Maybe kebetulan time tu xda org nak deliver. So, Dr Mimi cakap result CTG so far cantik. Dia nak buat VE lagi. Dah 4cm. Erk, kejap jugak. Then datang midwife bg ubat utk buang air. Sape sembelit ke susah nak meneran ke silalah amik ubat ni. Ahahaha. Lepas masuk ubat tu terus nak p toilet. Tinnnngg.. Settled.

Mmg x dan nak masuk bilik sbb cepat je dilate. Hubby. Turun bawah breakfast jap. Pagi tu sha sempat mkn biskut, minum air milo and kurma. Masa hubby pergi bfast, contraction makin kuat. I called hubby suruh naik atas skang sbb contraction dah kuat. Plus x minta maaf kat dia lagi. :D  Hubby sampai and midwife masuk tanya sakit sgt ke? Nak pain killer? Ckp nak, etonox or pethidine. Rasanya dia bg pethidine. Jab kat muntut. Tp skit pun tak legakan rasa sakit tuh. Cuma lama2 rasa mengantuk skit. Tp dia mmg ckp ubat tu akan buat rasa mengantuk nnti. Around 11.30 sakit yg sangat lah dasyat. Tak henti2 baca ayat dr surah yunus. Hubby siap melawak, at the end kene tumbuk lah kene cubit lah. Sempat pesan kat dia bila sayang ckp kat B syg sakit sgt and nk teran terus pergi kat nurse. Betul2 lepas ckp mcm tuh, rasa mcm nak poo-poo and nak meneran. Perut dah mengeras gila. Nurse and midwife masuk. Nurse prepare brg2 while midwife buat VE lagi. Terus dia ckp panggil Dr Mimi. Nurse ckp Puan tarik nafas dalam2 lepas. Masa tu nak baca Lailahailaanta tu pun tercungap2. Dr Mimi sampai dah, kejap je. Dia ckp whenever you ready Fadia push ok. So bila contraction yg kuat sampai, sha push. X lepas. Hubby kali ni jd very supportive. Midwife ada dua org. Sorang tu my neighbour. Lagi lah i rasa mcm lega juga sbb ada org lain yg i kenal. Push kali kedua diorang kata kepala dah nk keluar. Dr Mimi guidance sgt lah helpful. Push kali ketiga push sekuat hati hampir nak keluar. Mmg terasa kepala kt bawah tuh. Hubby ckp kat telinga, push kuat lg skit je. Dah nampak baby.  Kali keempat push sekuat2 hati sgt, there u are. Baby terus nangis. Nurse tunjuk baby and confirmkan. So nurse bawak pergi bersihkan dia and utk hubby azankan n iqamatkan. This time my perineum tear sendiri. Tak digunting mcm masa Rayhana dulu. Tear tepi skit. Lepas Dr Mimi jahit, MA dtg bersihkan jahitan. Settle semua I moved to my room. Baby diorg ckp antar kejap lagi sebab nk bg injection. Tak lama pun tunggu dlm labour room nk masuk bilik. Delivered at 12.10pm kul 1pm  mcm tuh dh masuk bilik. 

This time post delivery badan sgt lemah okay. Maybe age one thing. Org kata deliver anak lelaki tenaga lebih skit. Baby masuk bilik n try to breastfeed. Dia latch tp susu tadak. Yg ada pun yg clear color yg likat. Sha bg je kt baby. Tp almaklumlah baby boy kan. Betul lah org kata kuat minum. Few minutes later, nurse masuk tanya ada susu tak Puan. I said no. Muka frust. Puan nak campur dulu tak?kita letak kat nursery. Takut dia lapar. Tanya hubby and hubby ckp ok lah. Tp sha ckp kt nurse Sha bawa breastpump. I will try pump banyak kali tonite. If ada Sha bg kat nurse minta bg kat baby nnti. Nurse ckp ok. So baby letak kat nursery dulu. Hubby suruh rest sebab sha mmg flat terus.

Ptg my parent dtg, terus cari kelibat Rayhana. Nampak dia sha terus nangis. Sha dok fikir cmana dgn dia nnti bila my attention dkt baby Izz je nanti. Kesian dia. Dia malu2 bila nampak Sha dan dia buat muka geram bila nampak baby. Geram dia ni lain mcm skit. Mau ditonyoh2 nyer  muka baby. Spent about 2 hours with Rayhana sbb Sha boleh balik pun besok.

Night time, mmg condition sha mcm worst skit. I can't sleep at all. Lepas keluar dr labour room, kesan ubat mmg ade and made me sleepy. Tp still tak boleh tido. Food dkt hospital tak termakan pun. So asked hubby to tapau nasi goreng biasa. Ubat dah makan but I still can't sleep. Hubby buatkan hot choc pun kononnye nk suruh tido lepas tu tak boleh. At the end, hubby keluar and minta ubat yg boleh buatkan sha tido. Nurse masuk and tanya condition sha. Perut sha sakit sangat. Mcm rasa contraction lagi. Then semua jari2 sha menggigil. Bila pegang something, mcm tak leh pegang lama. Headache. Dah tutup lampu, tv pun still can't sleep. I got painkiller tp still tak boleh kurangkan rasa sakit tuh. Around 2am something baru dapat tido. Bangun masa Subuh. Before tido tu sempat google cari kenapa Sha boleh rasa mcm tuh. Most of it pointing to Rengat. Not Rengit kat Johor tu okeh. I will share skit about Rengat nanti in my next post.

Morning, rasa sakit kurang. Doc Mimi datang at 8am, check mata ada blur ke tak? perut sakit lagi ke tak? Check rahim dah kecut ke tak. Bp results 3 kali okay dah dia kata. Compare to result lepas delivered baby. Almost 5 times amik BP lepas delivered, semuanya tinggi. At the end, merasa jugak makan ubat darah tinggi. Masa delivered Rayhana dulu semuanya okay je. Dr Mimi cakap lunch time boleh discharge dah. Lepas Paed check baby nanti. Alhamdulillah, sib baik boleh keluar awal. Ingat kan kene monitor sbb BP tinggi semalam. Tghari hubby settlekan bill and procedure for discharge. Around 2pm, we all discharged. So far, experience deliver dekat KPMC memang okay. Mula2 mcm fikir banyak kali jugak nak deliver kat sini sebab bila search experience deliver dgn Dr Mimi memang susah nak jumpa orang share on the net. Bila dah experience sendiri, Alhamdulillah, Dr Mimi okay sangat. Hubby pun kagum dengan skill dia. Whoever check up dkt KPMC and tgh consider Dr Mimi, I would suggest you to take her as your consultant. :D Deluxe room for me biasa2 je utk single bed. Tak lah segempak KPJ. But ko stay kejap je kan, so tak payah nak membazir. Kalau korang ada extra money and tak tau nak spend tang mana, kat KPMC ni korang boleh amik VIP room. Tu room yang cantik and sangat besar. Okay lovelies, see ya next time.

Izz Zaffran : Kekuatan & Kemenangan

::9 bulan 10 hari::

Generally, orang cakap perempuan mengandung 9 bulan 10 hari. Tapi kalau kita kira, 40 weeks tuh equal to 10 months okay?? Alhamdulillah, I've entered 9 months now. 37 weeks since last Sunday. 

Fuh minggu yang mencabar. Setelah berhempas pulas mengemas bilik untuk sambut baby, kemas pulak bilik tengah sebab rasa semak sangat. Selalunya abah yang rajin kemas. Yes, abah saya memang sangat rajin! :D rajin kemas, rajin masak, sedap plak tuh. Rajin melayan kerenah cucu dia yg sangat clingy. Clingy dengan ibu dia and atuk dia je, orang lain tak. Thanks Abah, you are the best from the best. I LOVE YOU!!! Abah baru keluar ward lepas operate dan dia sangat kuat. Patutnya dia mcm orang pantang bersalin sebab dia operate for prostat. Tp gagah je plak iolss tengok. Alhamdulillah, okay. 2 weeks yang mencabar bagi sha. 2 weeks before, abah and ibu down with fever. On off. skali rayhana pun demam. Doc kat clinic yg dia check tuh cakap demam sebab colic. Fine. Sha monitor je rayhana malam tuh. Skali tengah malam temperature tinggi. 39 and 40. Gila. Mana penah tinggi mcm tuh. Dasss, bagi ubat muntut terus. Bawak p KPJ sebab semua clinic tutup. Plus, I don't trust Doc kat clinic tu dah. Terus minta buat blood test. Instinct, lain mcm je rasa. Blood result turn positive for dengue. Mana ko tak panic. Gelisah dok pikir budak kecik mcm ni kene dengue. Sha yang dulu kene dengue twice pun serba x kena 😭, inikan dia. Poor baby. Few days after that my mom warded jgk for dengue. Sebelum tu hospital x nak warded kan dia sbb platlet boleh control But then down with 4 only. Platlet 4 okay? Ibu kene masuk ICU terus. Sbb ibu kan ada diabetic and high blood pressure. Mana x keruan. Sini warded sana warded. Nasib baik abah dah sihat. Ada jeje and achik, adik ibu from penang datang. Mekdah as well, tolong tgk kan ibu. Masa ibu kat ICU minta hubby jaga ray kat KPJ and I went to Hospital Kajang. KPMC tolak pg hospital Kajang, reason takde ICU room kat sana. Erm...KPJ memang penuh. Mostly pun nurse cakap sebab case dengue. Condition ray kat hospital kejap okay kejap tak. Kejap platlet  naik kejap turun. Kejap panas naik kejap turun. Dr Asmunni sangat baik and sangat okay bila dia explain. Kita tanya this, sure ada jawapan yg memuaskan. Tapi, this time punya stay memang tak best. Malas warded tu we all dapat 4 bedded room sebab itu je yang kosong. 2 bedded pun sebenarnya okay. Tapi biasanya bila tengok Rayhana cranky semacam, mmg sha akan request single bedded. Next morning je mesti dapat single bed dkt ward Paed tuh. So takde lah gaduh2, tukar temperature aircond. Hahaha.. But this  time, dapat single room tapi dekat ward sebelah. Ward surgical and medical. So yang akan treat Ray same doc tapi tak lah dapat borak2 dengan nurse2 yang selalu treat Ray kat ward paed tuh. Even dgn makcik cleaner pun sha dah jd geng. Dia kenal sangat rayhana. Nurse2 kat ward surgical ni bila tengok kan mmg nampak diorang ni mcm panic skit bila nak masuk kan branula dlm tangan baby. Hari yang ke empat Ray dah kene drip dua tempat. Tempat yang kedua tu asalnye utk blood taking. tapi disebabkan tempat drip pertama-tangan kanan dah mcm asik leaking je, tukar tangan kiri. Tapi tak bestnya, next day tangan ray bengkak gila. I notice pun masa dia cakap sakit-sakit. Twice. First time tu i tot dia mmg takmo masuk drip tu balik, tp rupanya sakit. Bila tengok betul2 rupanya dah bengkak sangat. Tak nampak sebab tempat tu berbalut. 

Ni gambar masa hari rayhana boleh discharge. Still bengkak lagi. Dr cakap akan kecut 24 hours. Tapi dah 2 hari tak kecut jugak. So Dr bg antibiotic to sapu on her hand. My mom marah betul bila tengok tangan dia mcm ni. I asked few friend, ada yang cakap boleh complaint and sue. Tak boleh nak fikir lah, banyak benda jadi. I just letak ubat and bg dia ubat as per Dr advice and hope for her speedy recovery. Dah 6 kali Ray warded to KPJ (5x sebab acute bronchitis 1x sebab dengue), terkejut tiba2 nurse from medical surgical ward call tanya condition rayhana. Dia tanya tangan mcmana. Twice plak tu dia call. Mesti diorang seriau tengok tangan budak boleh bengkak besar mcm tuh. Takpe la kakak2, learn from mistake okay. Lepas appointment dgn Dr Asmunni last 9/2, a week later, tangan rayhana okay. Dia tak mengadu sakit. Luka kecut and takde nanah. Oh, hari tu ada nanah ok. Tu yg we all takut. Alhamdulillah, asalkan dia ok I pun happy. 

Ok, sambung pasal citer mengandung. Braxton Hicks come and go. Every day okay. Sakit mcm nak start senggugut tu tiap hari ada. Baby gerak tapi slow a bit dari bulan2 sebelumnya. Sakit pinggang jangan cakap. Dr Mimi cakap baby dah engage. Any time can deliver. Tp seeloknya biar minggu ke 38 onwards. Minggu 38 tu Doc lagi beberapa hari je. Ikutkan nak je suruh baby kuar awal. Tak sabar nk tengok. Tp seram bila dok fikir contraction and episiotomy. Masa minggu ke 36 last week, patutnye ada appointment dgn Dr Jamil. Dr Mimi refer pergi dkt dia. Normal procedure. Tapi sayangnya, sha tak sempat jumpa Dr Jamil. Dia dah pergi selama-lamanya. Al Fatihah. The best and most choosen gynae specialist kat KPMC. Semalam jumpa Dr Mimi. Dia sangat sedih sebab Prof lah tmpt dia mengadu kalau ada apa2 problem pasal kerja. Dia cakap masa tau tu, dia mcm taknak datang keje dah. Tp masa kat Prof warded, dia dah amanahkan semua patient dia pergi kat Dr Mimi. Takpe Dr Mimi, you are doing good.

Counting days ni mcm counting days nak kawin pun ada. Doakan dipermudahkan dan selamat bersalin ye, ladies. 

::Baby I for 3D and 4D scan::

My baby sangat lah active lately ni. So I so excited nak tau apa baby buat masa scan dia nanti. I booked appointment at Assalam Clinic in Bangi with Celyn semalam. Head to bayi-ibu.com for booking, ladies. That was my 3rd time met Celyn. My baby tido pulak masa tuh. Bila kacau dia mencebik bibir dia. Beria2 confirm, hidung dia sebiji mcm Kakak Rayhana dia. Alhamdulillah, semuanya looks okay even my air ketuban still banyak. Oh, I'm nervous but can't wait to meet my baby. :D

Current weight: 1.9kg

Summary of EDD: 6th March instead of 15th March

End of February nanti, prepare je lah awal2 Sha oi. 

::Entering 8 months of pregnancy:

31 weeks plus now. Alhamdulillah. Baby actively kicking and moving around. Seronok eh. Mcm dah lama gila tak rasa mcm tuh. But at the same time, Sha rasa nervous gila. This time mcmana lah pulak sakit nye. Kejap ke lama ke. Harap ALLAH permudahkan semuanya. 

Oh, this time, husband romantic skit dr last time. Last time, blur kot. This time, maybe dia dah tau mcmana nak treat his wife yg mcm whale ni. :P I can't wait to see Baby I. Booked appointment for 4D scan sebab nak tau apa dia tgh buat time dia active. Chubby for sure sebab my pelvic sakit gila dah kot. Mcm nk terberanak any time. Like I told you before, if ikut my LMP my due patutnye 20 Feb. Ikut scan 15 March. Irregular period lepas stop breast feeding. I tracked tapi bila dah jd irregular susah pulak la kan.. 

I went for glucose test last Friday for the second time. Reason diorang cakap sebab family history. Baiklah. Dr Mimi from KPMC cakap tak payah buat glucose test kat situ since I dah pernah buat kat KKIA. So dia tunggu result for 2nd test ni je lah. I still haven't decide to give birth at the same hospital, Hospital Serdang or KPMC. Since 2013, review for Hospital Serdang semuanya baik and elok belaka. Same goes with KPMC. But I have dilemma. My husband suggested to change Dr from Dr Mimi to Dr Anita. Sha penah jumpa Dr Anita dulu masa Dr Mimi buatkan appointment Sha dgn Dr Anita masa Week 37. Dia sangat okay. Then next week nya time tu ada appointment dgn Dr Mimi balik dia tanya, awak dah pilih Dr mana ke? Then I chose, her. Dr Mimi. Kenapa tak pilih Dr Anita eh? Kelam kabut la ko ni, Sha. Tp last2, bersalin kat Hospital Serdang. :D This time pun, kenapa tak dr awal2 buat appointment dgn Dr Anita, still pilih Dr Mimi? Sebab selesa dah cakap2 dgn dia kot. Mcm kakak2 kita je. So after google and read some review from blogger, I tau dah nak pilih Dr mana this time kat KPMC. Sama ada stick to Dr Mimi or change to Dr Anita. Dr Jamil, expert mcmana pun dia, sha still tak berani nak amik Dr lelaki lagi. Kalau rezeki bersalin kat Hospital Serdang lagi, harap sangat luck Sha mcm bersalin kan Rayhana dulu. Everything went smooth from the moment I register dekat kaunter, VE, time masa kat PAC and masa nak bersalin. Amin..

I've completed my preparation for my 2nd baby. Baru tadi completed kan. Baby gear and care mostly beli kat Jusco. Baju yang cun2 for check up or jalan2 from Mothercare and H&M. Bedding stuff from IKEA. Feeding and confinement stuff from online shop, Marissa_Shoppe & baby expo. Cheaper a bit dr tmpt lain. Follow IG dia please. So you guys mcmana? Dah abis shopping. 

Now it's time to basuh semua benda and prepare hospital bag. Banyak, but buat slow2 lah. This Sunday masuk 8 months, but until now still addicted to Starbucks or CBTL. Haiz.. Asik crave benda yang manis je. 

::3rd Trimester::

I have entered 3rd trimester and my baby is getting big day by day. Alhamdulillah. Nervous pulak rasa. Baby I loves to wake me up late night and early in the morning. Around Subuh time. Thanks baby. :D

30 weeks now. 10 weeks away from today. I so nervous. I went shopping all baby stuff last week. Takut bersalin awal. 90% completed except for breast pump and confinement set. I got my old breast pump which is manual breast pump Medela Harmony. It was okay. Tp hari tu pindah letak kat rumah ibu yg lg satu, hilang pump dia. bottle dia ada. Haizz... This time ingat nak beli electric pump. Tp bukan Medela. Thinking to buy Malish Mango. Single breast pump. Actually tgk and baca review Malish Ilaria for double breast pump pun okay. Tengok lah mcmana. 

Banyak betul baju baby nak basuh. So this weekend activity kena basuh and simpan elok2. Nak prepare Hospital bag skali. Nanti kelam kabut. Nak suruh husband pack kan, confirm ntah apa2 dia pack nnti. 

Rayhana, sangat cheeky tau dia ni. Geram betul. Ada je akal dia. Memang budak panjang akal. Hari tu balik kampung in law husband cakap Rayhana ni mcm boleh jadi kakak penyayang. Dia langsung tak gaduh dgn cousin dia. Mcm protect lagi ada. Bagus la nak, kang adik dah keluar, takde lah mak hang risau sangat. She still struggle nak cakap satu ayat yang penuh. Still learning. Tp pandai sambung kan ayat. Bila baca doa, dia akan make sure semua orang angkat tangan sama doa dengan dia. Bila dia nak say something, dia akan make sure semua orang pandang muka dia. Dia ni sangat active. Cepat belajar benda baru. Budak kan, diorang mcm photostat machine. Dengan Rayhana jugak lah I can control my temper. My baby taught me so many things. 

Oh, it's 5.55 now. I need to go back on sharp at 6pm. Hahaha.. No point stay at the office lama2. See ya later. 

::25 Weeks::

6 months plus dah?! :O Alhamdulillah, kejap nyer. Now baru colleague cakap perut dah besar. This time punya pregnancy mencabar sikit masa pregnant kan Rayhana. Nose bleed sampai skang tak stop lagi. Lepas tuh berat kejap je naik. Tak pasal2 kene bp monitoring by doctor. Bi weekly plak tuh. Now, bila dah 6 months back pain yg sakit sangat. Mmg uncomfortable. Berjalan tak kene sebab pelvic pun sakit. Berdiri lama apa kan lagi. Jalan pun dah mcm penguin.  Worst part, trapped gas, diarrhea pun ada skali. Suffer la jugak. Malam2 tak tido. At the same time baby keep moving, lagi la perut rasa semacam. Bertabahlah sha oi. 

So I went to 3d and 4d scan. Just to see my lil one.  Style tunjuk muka sama betul mcm kakak dia. Tak suka kena kacau masa dia main or tido. Due date asyik berubah, bukan makin lambat tapi makin cepat. By February dah kena prepare semua benda. Mcm Rayhana bersalin seminggu awal. This one tak boleh nak predict.

Baby, please be good. Hopefully sentiasa sihat walafiat walaupun dalam tu sempit skit. :) Kakak Rayhana can't wait to see you. 

::List of Maternity and Baby Expo November 2014::

IBEX International Baby Expo 2014

Date: 14th - 16th November 2014

Location: Kuala Lumpur Convention Center

8th Maternity & Children Expo 2014

Date: 21st - 23rd November 2014

Location: MidValley Exhibition  Center

Putrajaya Parents And Baby Carnival 2014

Date: 28th - 30th November 2014

Location: Putrajaya Internation Convention Center

Pureen Stock Clearance Promotion

Date: 28th - 30th November 2014

Location: Summit Company (M) Sdn Bhd, 12A, Jalan Perunding U1/17,

Glenmarie Industrial Park, Shah Alam

::Hospital Bags::

To be ready by week 32 and above.:D

Mummy 

Nursing Top - Discharge

Kain Batik - Discharge

Shawl 

Snacks

Small Al-Quran 

Panties- Disposable panties pun okay but I'm not prefer to use this. 

Nursing Bra 

Sanitary Pad set 

Facial Wash

Tooth Brush

Shower Gel & loofah

Syampoo  

Towel

Slipper

Socks 

Phone and Purse

Eyeliner / Mascara / Compact Powder / Lip Gloss - Incase uolls nak look cantik jelita like Che'Ta lepas bersalin. :D

Baby 

Receiving Blanket

Powder, Minyak Telon, Cologne, Hooded Towel

Suits, mittens &  boots

Napkins

Pampers

Car Seat

Hats 

::1/2 way through of my 2nd pregnancy::

Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. 21 weeks now and 19 weeks to go. Phew.. Nervous tiba2. I remember last time when I was in pain cause of the contraction. From 6cm dilated to 10cm tu rasa macam ..erm, dunno how to describe. Sakit sangat. Hope this time will be smooth pregnancy for me. InshaAllah. 

I went for 3d and 4d scan Malaysia early of this week. Thought want to do it next week. Husband not around so I decided to do it without him and give him a lil surprise as we hardly know our baby gender. So I did it on 4th Nov. 5th Nov is our 4th anniversary. Perfect time! Setiap kali checkup kat KPMC dia tutup peha dia rapat2. Same goes last week. Doc dapat confirm gender 70% only but she don't want to tell. It's okay Doctor, I went for 4D scan and clearly can see my baby gender already. :)

When I did 4D scan for Rayhana, she was 23 weeks and I did for Baby I in 21 weeks. Comparison, Baby I chubby a bit. But the rest semua sama, pose suka tutup muka and muka mcm tgh berfikir dua2 sama.:D Alhamdulillah baby sihat, air ketuban okay and position plasenta pun ok. Alhamdulillah. Harap semuanya okay sampai masa delivery nanti. InshaAllah. 

So husband so excited when I told him about our baby. Especially he just got to know baby gender on the night of our anniversary. Then I got anniversary gift. Hahaahha.. Tiba2 je. Currently baby ni mengidam another jelly shoes from Ferragamo since my black color one, sudah buruk rasanye. Then I crave for new LV Emilie wallet, and LV Alma BB mini bag. I want Chanel but belum boleh lagi. Menjerit orang dengar Bolehhhhhhhhhhhhh? Tersangat mengada. 

I have prepared Baby Check List part 2. Few items je dapat guna Rayhana punya. The rest kene buy new. December can start prepare dy.  

**Rayhana too manja with me. Kesian dia. Nowadays asyik cari mana Ibu dia pergi. :D 

::September Updates::

So, Rayhana warded again to KPJ early of this month. For 5th times. :( Just after we reached KL from Penang. She hardly to breath properly. So at 12am, we went to clinic to see doctor for nebulizer. I've asked Doc if she already has wheezing on her lung. And yes, wheezing memang ada. Memang dah ada okay. Bukan baru ada. So after nebulizer pun, memang ada lagi. So Doc cakap dia kene consistently on nebulizer every 4 hours.
I've decided to bring her back and monitor her situation. Plan to bring her to KPJ next day. At 4am and 6am, she woke up balik sebab mengamuk, susah nk bernafas. Before that I bg dia ventolin and flexotide. Bg rasa okay skit. 7 am, we reached KPJ emergency room. Sebab nafas dia naik turun. Dr Fazli yang warded kan  Rayhana masa first time masuk KPJ hr tu on duty. He even recognized my face and Rayhana. Dia tengok Rayhana dia cakap dada dia laju sangat ni. Kene on gas every 2 hours. Mula2 we all  boleh tak dengar dia cakap dia suruh warded. Lepas tu dia tanya ubat apa Sha ada lagi. So Sha cakap inhaler ade. But at the same time I so pelik kenapa dia tanya ubat apa ada lagi. Dia cakap, bagi inhaler tu every 2 hours, bila tak jalan bawak datang sini. So Izam, kalau dia warded boleh ke Doctor? Dr Fazli cakap, eh tadi saya tanya awak mcm tak nak dia warded. Tu yang saya pelik. Okay2, baik kita warded terus sebab laju ni. Oh, Dr confuse rupanya dengan apa yg kitorang tanya tadi. Kebetulan, Paed on call Paed Rayhana, Dr Meena.
So, further checked lepas bg nebulizer, temperature Rayhana naik to 38.1. Oxygen drop from 100% to 90%. Nurse yang amik darah Rayhana tak jumpa urat darah pulak. Kalau less minum memang urat darah susah nk timbul. Sian la dia dua kali cucuk tak jumpa. Lepas tu baru okay. Around 9, baru  naik Paed ward. Few nurse yang familiar with my face and Rayhana semua tanya.

First day, no physio session sebab public holiday. Rayhana kene amik XRay skali hari tuh. In the afternoon, jumpa lah kami dengan Dr Meena. From Xray results, her lung banyak flame. Blood  test okay. Cuma for the time being, rayhana kene on gas sepanjang masa. Thank God detected early. Kalau lama, turn to infection. This time flame dia banyak sangat. I pelik jugak mcmana pelik. sebab masa wedding day dia okay. Balik dr wedding malam tu start flu and batuk2. Next day, dengar nafas dia berbunyi. Puas fikir apa penyebab. Sebab dia bukannye selsema before tuh. Monday, we survive stay kat hospital sebab abah ibu ada kat Penang lagi. Next day physio session, therapist cakap banyak sangat. Dekat hidung and mulut. Next day buat lagi. Masa ni ibu abah jeje otw balik KL. Jeje sampai Jeje cakap Ana, who is my cousin yang baru kahwin tu cakap buah orange can trigger asthma and cause batuk selsema. Then br teringat Izam, bagi dia makan orange banyak masa wedding. At the end we stay kat KPJ for 6 days.

First 3 days, Rayhana asyik mengamuk. Bila masuk 7pm or maghrib. Dia mengamuk. Ni case lain. My bro and sis in law noticed masa diorang datang on Tuesday. Masa hr dia warded pun dia mengamuk, tp I sorang2 je. On 3rd day, pukul 7pm dia mengamuk lagi. Masa tu I dah pasang ayat kursi, ruqyah. Dia mengamuk pukul2 kepala. Sape tak pelik. I call my husband suruh dia dtg hospital now. Bila azan dia diam. Then masa ayat ruqyah tengah pasang, ada phase dia mcm ikut kita baca. Around 8pm baru dia diam. Minum susu then tidor. So 8 something, my husband came bawa air yassin. Dia bacakan ayat kursi and ada ayat lain dekat Rayhana and basahkan dr kepala Rayhana ke kaki dia. Lepas tu bagi dia minum air yassin tu skit. I told my family in law pasal ni. So we suspect Rayhana kene kacau masa dekat RnR Tapah. Sebab masa tu maghrib and we all keluar dari kereta. Masa lepas Rnr Tapah ada skali dia tiba2 mengamuk cakap akut..akut (Takut). Masa tidur 4am and 6am pun jadi benda yang sama. Ada biras I punya dad boleh tengok kan. Wallahualam. Kita ikhtiar. So pakcik suggest kitorang baca beberapa ayat Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah, next day dan seterusnya Rayhana tak mengamuk lagi.

Rayhana since dia nak jadi kakak and lepas sakit, sangat lah manja. Especially with me. Skit2 abu..abu.. Mana-mana abu. Nak tido abu. Nak jalan abu. Dia still panggil Ibu, Abu.

Last week, ada appointment with O&G. Alhamdulillah baby membesar dengan baik at 14 weeks. k sabar nak tengok dia masa next check up nanti. Ntah dapat tahu ke tak baby girl or baby boy. Hope baby sihat walafiat okay baby.

This month memang stress skit. Rayhana tak sihat, office matter. Memang stress. Bertabah je lah.

Oh, kene beli baju lain dah. Bj skang ni dah tak berapa muat. Hikhik.. Hint for hub utk shopping. See ya next time lovelies!

::Nosebleed during pregnancy::

Last Friday, sampai office lambat. Hari tu beria nak sampai office awal. Normal lah masa pregnant keluar masuk toilet tengah malam. Subuh tuh pergi toilet, rasa mcm selsema. Ingatkan selsema datang balik. Tekan hidung takmo stop plak. Sepantas kilat amik tissue tengok ada darah. Tekap lagi tisu kat hidung ada darah lagi. Banyak pulak tuh. Dah tu pikir bukan2, sakit ke aku? Sha keluar toilet, cakap dgn my dad. Dia cakap panas kot badan tuh. (Chop ambulance lalu.. tiba2 rasa seram) Okay, sambung lagi. For few minutes, darah tak nak stop. So google is the best place to find your own remedy. How to prevent and do this and that. Jumpa satu blog ni. Tak ingat nama blog tuh apa.  Mostly cakap adalah normal bila masuk 2nd trimester. 

Apa uolss kena buat bila hidung berdarah mcm ni?

1. Jangan mendongak. Else darah masuk dalam saluran pernafasan.
2. Calm and duduk menegak. 
3. Tekan batang hidung selama 10-20 minutes.
4. Lepas tu korang akan rasa mcm hidung dah kering. 
5. Kalau lepas 20 min tak stop, sila jumpa doctor ye.

Senang kan?  Selamat mencuba. 

::2 is better than 1::

• Nausea, checked
• Heartburn, checked 
• Too tired, checked
• Too sleepy, checked
• Heartburn, checked
• Backpain, checked 
• Light headache, checked 
• Stomach cramp, checked 
• Breast Engorged, checked
• UPT +ve, checked
• Ob&Gyn, checked

It still early for me to share with you but my girls, my family and few close officemates knew about this. I'm so nervous and excited. Alhamdulillah, No.2 is coming. InshaAllah. Can't thank you enough, Allah. So precious. Nur Rayhana is going to be a  big sister soon. I hope this time pregnancy will be smooth pregnancy just like when I carried Nur Rayhana.

Just like Rayhana, I'm craving for something spicy and sour like tomyam. No appetite to eat banyak2. Losing weight. I hate mall, lazy to go out. My baby bump is starting to show day by day. So soon meh? Rayhana cranky and manja sangat with me all the time. Maybe, one of the sign.

You know your body, right? When you felt something not right, this is the only thought I had. Must be pregnant. This is something unpredictable. When I showed Blue stick to Izam, he said " Oh, tak pregnant." I said look closely, tengok betul2. So clear compare to last time. Then he was like " Hah, pregnant?  Betul ke?  ". He can't believe it. Cess. So, I went to KPMC to see my Ob&Gyn, Dr Mimi and she confirm it. I saw Dr Bala from KPJ as well. Just to get other opinion sebab my case seems different. I conceived later than my LMP.

When you heard and saw the heartbeat, it's magical.  Teringat masa Rayhana dulu. Allah Maha Besar. Pray for me ya, lovelies. No more wedges, heels even jeans. I can't wear jeans. Totally not comfortable. Dulu, still can button my pants, now cannot. Hihi. InshaAllah, Rayhana will have someone to take care of and to play with. :D Alhamdulillah. 

::Leave abis dah::

Salam, 

I'm back in the office. 60 days je cuti? Skit and kejap kan? 60 days tuh masuk Saturday, Sunday & Public Holiday okeh. I thought 60 days maternity leave tuh tak termasuk hari2 tuh. Miss Rayhana dy. Mana tak nye, dah 2 days masuk keje, dia suka main2, senyum2, cakap2 plak pagi2 buta before I pergi kerje. So cute my daughter (statement biasa mak-mak puji anak sendiri :P). So in love with her.   Atuk & Nenek seronok jaga dia. But next week, dah balik umah sendiri. Merindu lah atuk & nenek dia kat Rayhana. 

Rayhana dah masuk 2 months 1 week. Alhamdulillah. Dia bertambah bersemangat. Pampers dah size M. Berat dah 5.1 kilos. Tang peha tu mcm ayam goreng, so kene pakai pampers besar skit. Dah nampak orang. Mata dah boleh ikut mana kami pergi. Selalu gelak, bila agah. Senyum bila kita kerap cakap dgn dia. Mengamuk mcm ibu nye, :p. Since 2/3 weeks, dia mmg dah pandai angkat kepala. Lepas tuh pandai alihkan kepala sendiri bila tidur meniarap atas badan kami. 1 thing I notice, I faham satu bahasa dia. Puas dok fikir ape dia nak dgn perkataan tuh. Bila dia sebut "Ingge~", means dia lapar or haus, nak susu . Dia hanya sebut tu bila lapar je. Bila time nangis biasa sebab panas ke, mengantuk then orang kacau ke, dia takde sebut. 

 Okay, ni normal behaviour for mak-mak. Record video anak. Take picture anak banyak2, jadikan wallpaper handphone, laptop, desktop, letak kat cubicle lagi. Paling best, puji anak sendiri. Ahaha, dulu I ckap, ape lah diorg ni. Now ada anak, baru tau mcmana. :P

Yes, my life changed. Tidur tak pernah cukup & lena sbb I lagi suka tgk dia tidur and berjaga incase dia lapar. Bila keluar tak bawak dia, teringat kat dia. Nak keluar skang pun tak selalu mcm dulu, sbb baby still small.  Now dah nak puasa  nak raya, tak sabar nk shop baju utk baby instead baju diri sendiri. Overall I really enjoy my new life. 

  

::Berpantang - Day 10::

Berpantang ni adalah menyiksa kan skit bagi orang yang suka makan mcm I ni. Hee. Yea lor, certain food je you boleh makan. Lagi banyak blackpepper lagi bagus. Asik2 makan ikan and sup. Tengok Cake Ice Cream BR dlm fridge geram je. Tp suka plak I minum Milo panas or Horlicks panas. 1 hari sampai 3 kali buat air tuh. 

So semalam baru teringat nak minum Polleney Ikan Haruan tuh. Review? Sangat sucks! Cannot describe taste dia mcmana. Teruk gila. Rasanya, air jamu yang tukang urut I buatkan lagi sedap dari Polleney ni. Nak tak nak kene minum jugak sebab tak mo rasa sakit episiotomy tu terasa. Furthermore, nak elok kan luka cepat. Dah day 10 still ada rasa sakit skit. Maybe sebab I jalan lasak. Tanya kawan, mostly in 7 days. Tp smlm minum Polleney, esoknya sakit rasa kurang. Means bagus la kan?

Time berpantang ni orang dok paksa I makan sayur. Paling beria yang suruh I makan sayur adalah hubby. Dia beli sawi park choy lah, lobak putih lah untuk banyak kan susu. But yes, sup sawi park choy tu memang boleh banyak kan susu compare tu sup lobak putih. I makan last Sunday sup sawi tu dua kali, the next day dapat pump 4 oz skali session. Alhamdulillah. 

Tomorrow ada appointment dengan Doc lagi sebab nak tengok Bilirubin level dah turun bawah 5 ke tak? Now 5.3.  If yes, Alhamdulillah. Permudahkan lah ya ALLAH.  

Berat Rayhana dah 3.4kilos. Masa lahir last week 3.03kilos. Pipi makin tembam. I'm so in love with her. Dia ada pose mulut tersendiri bila nak minta susu. Geram. 

I've tried bengkung from Mustika Ratu, tapi mcm tak selesa sebab tak rasa I boleh kempiskan perut I . So tukang urut tanya ada tak bengkung yang lilit panjang tuh. So I suruh in law I bawa dari kampung hari tuh. Tapi sape yang nak tolong lilitkan bengkung tuh? I've tried my PB. I pakai my waist nipper dulu. 9 bulan tak pakai woo.. tak tau muat ke tak. Nasib baik muat. I tengok perut I lepas bersalin kempis skit sari sebelum pregnant. So PB lah yang I pakai masa weekdays. Weekend ada ramai orang kat rumah, so diorg boleh tolong lilitkan bengkung panjang tuh. Oh ya, saje timbang berat semalam. My post pregnancy weight adalah 63.8kilos. Pre pregnancy 69 kilos. Last week of pregnancy hari tuh 82kilos. Mana pergi hilang semua berat tuh? Harus maintain ni. Mana tau boleh turunkan sampai 57-59 kilos? =)

:: Nur Rayhana & Pengalaman Bersalin di Hospital Serdang::

Assalamualaikum.. Some of you might know that I safely gave birth to my lil angel on Monday, 15th April 2013. Alhamdulillah, I'm so blessed with her present in my life. We named her Nur Rayhana since my pregnancy reached 4 months. I can't describe my feelings now. Syukur sangat2 to ALLAH. Rezeki yang tak terhingga nilainye. I'm so in love with her. Yes, Ibu loves you so much Rayhana. 

Seeing Izam called himself Abah pun rasa happy sangat. Tp hubby I ni mcm Pak lawak skit.  Dok selalu geram dengan baby sendiri. My Abah, Ibu, sis and lil brother dok called themselves Atuk lah, Nenek lah, Mak Ngah lah, Acu lah rasa kelakar. Ada yang takmo panggil makcik nak gak Aunty and Uncle. Amboi. Like my bro and SIL. :P

D.OB: 15th April 2013

Weight: 3.03KG

 P.S: Nurse, awak salah spell nama my Abah.

Contractions come and go

Okay, I citer skit pasal pengalaman bersalin dan pengalaman stay at Hospital Serdang. Monday morning around 4.50am tetiba I terjaga rasa sakit mcm period pain. Tp kejap je. So I ignore. Lepas tu at 5.30am, I rasa sakit yang sama lagi. So I pg toilet rasa nak pee pee. :) Then, spot something with blood. So I said, must be bloody show. Takpe tunggu dulu. Time tu baru terhegeh2 nak download application contraction tracker. Few minutes later, I start track. Gap 5 minutes apart. So I ckp kat diri sendiri, it's time kot. My mum bangun nak Subuh, I cakap kat dia terus. Time tu sakit leh tahan lagi. So I mandi, prepare ape yang patut and ckp kt  my husband I rasa dah masa pergi hospital. Husband I tido kat umah, I time tu kat umah my mum. Since work from home and last week of pregnancy I stay kat umah my mum. 

Around 7:45am, baru we all keluar rumah. Hubby tanya KPMC or Serdang? So we decide pergi Hospital Serdang. Nasib baik sakit leh tahan. Dah register semua, tunggu turn diorg panggil utk masuk PAC area. I tengok semua org perut besar2, tengok diri sendiri kecik. :) So when they called my name, bp, urine semua dah amik. So tunggu Doc dtg check.  At 10am, Doc check bukaan. I was dilated 4cm. So they suggested to check again at 2pm. 2pm lama tuh, so I pergi makan dulu. Lepak dengan hubby. Then Doc Sharmila check again.   This time I was dilated 6cm. So Doc suggested tunggu or jumpa hubby kat luar ke or duduk kat PAC waiting area. Kat situ ada lah few people yang boleh borak sama. Sebab apa kene tunggu, katil penuh. Ntah mcmana, hari tuh ramai plak yg nk bersalin. Nasib baik dtg awal. I dah pesan awal2 kat hubby, bila dah bersalin terus pergi counter depan book 1st class nyer ward. Nak duduk sorang2. Nak  menangis ke, nak suruh sape2 teman ke, boleh. Itu procedure diorg kata receptionist kat counter tu lah kan. Dah bersalin, baru leh pergi book. 

In Labour Room

At 3.15pm I cakap kat hubby, sakit makin kuat. Let say nak deliver nanti, diorg akan panggil hubby masuk. Before that, dah minta maaf kat my parents and in law. So masuk PAC balik , I ckp kat nurse sakit makin kuat and kerap. Selang 1 min. So diorg suruh I baring kat katil dulu. Time tu sakit dia, mak oi I tak leh tahan dah. I merengek mcm budak kecik, keep baca surah yunus, selawat, istighfar but sakit dia kuat sangat. I called nurse, I cakap tak tahan sakit dia kuat. I nak pain killer. Begging for pain killer okeh?? Nurse takmo bagi, dia kata nanti susah awak nak push. Sebab tak rasa nanti. I rasa nak pee plus buang air besar. Nurse cakap tak boleh jugak. Then Doc datang check bukaan lagi still 6cm and dia pecahkan air ketuban. Dah la nak pecahkan air ketuban punya lama. Tp Doc yang pecahkan air ketuban ni siap nyanyi2 plak. Dia tak tau ke tengah sakit masa tuh. So once the air ketuban pecah, fuhhh.. sakit dia lagi lah. Cannot describe. Then, I tengok perut I dah mengeras lain macam and I rasa nak buang air besar sangat. I terus panggil nurse and Doc cakap nurse saya rasa mcm nak push. Tak tahan! Nak nangis tak boleh. Sebab sakit sangat. Tak pernah rasa sakit mcm ni. :( Around 3.50pm diorg terus tolak I pergi labor room. They called my hubby to teman. Bila nampak hubby I, muka dia nmpk cuak. Tp dia kene stop kat counter depan labor room utk register or sign ape ntah. So dlm tu, stuff nurse Kumutha, check dah dilate 9cm. Ready to push dah. So she called Doc Farah Dilla, few nurse came to support me. So time diorg ready barang2 dlm labor room, I cakap I nak push. Diorg ckp tunggu2. Then, Doc Farah bg guidance. Tarik nafas dlm2 bila rasa sakit and teran sambil pandang perut. Teran mcm nk buang air besar? I dah la jarang rasa mcm tuh. Camna nak feeling? Teran2 for few times tak lepas. Diorg suruh curi nafas. Curi nafas? How? Try2 mcm tak lepas. I teran tang muka lah mostly nye. Hubby ada and I ckp sakit sangat B. Syg buat apa ni yang rasa susah sangat nk bersalin. Hubby try to calm me down. Suruh baca surah Yunus. Then dia kene marah dgn I sbb pegang kepala I masa tgh push. Hehehe.. Ampun B. Sbb I tak leh gerak. Push kali ke 4 or 5 I rasa something yang sakit,  mcm orang cucuk jarum. I sempat stop meneran I tanya apa tuh? Nurse cakap takde apa2 puan, terus meneran. Push yang lepas tu, tak lepas  jugak. So Doc Farah decide to vacuum my baby. Hubby kene keluar time ni. So while they preparing the procedure, sakit dtg. So I said I nak push, this is the time I rasa kat bawah tu lain macam. Then, Doc suddenly letak something atas perut, I pandang rupanya my baby.. Skin color pucat lagi. All the pain hilang mcm tu aje. I terus pegang my baby then terus dgr suara dia. Rasa lega hanya Allah je yg tau. Terus panjatkan syukur Alhamdulillah, dpt lahirkan Rayhana secara normal and dia selamat dilahirkan. The preparation to vacuum my baby was aborted. Nasib baik tak vacuum. Few minutes later, placenta pun keluar dah. Then, I have to deal with another pain plak. Episiotomy! Tp serious, sakit tu terasa masa jahit bahagian kulit, bahagian dalam tak sangat. Penat jangan cakap. Rasa mamai bila dah letih sangat. Sambil tu I borak2 dengan Doctor. Then Stuff nurse Kumutha datang balik, bawa my baby utk breastfeed. Walaupun I tak sure ada ke tak, I bg je. 

First time tengok baby sendiri depan mata, perasaan tuh sangat best.  Lepas doc settled. Then hubby masuk balik. Dapatlah dia tengok Rayhana masa tgh breastfeed. Hubby terus hulur tgn dia n kiss dahi. Syukur sangat. Nk peluk hubby kuat2, tp x leh gerak. 

Hubby only managed to book 2nd class as 1st class full. Takde yg discharge lg hr tu. I was told by hubby 2nd class 4 bedded. Tak leh nk imagine lg time tuh bilik mcmana. So lepas kuar labor, nurse brought me to 2nd class ward. Owh, sangat okay rupanya. Senyap je. Ada 4 beds yang gap dia sangat selesa. Toilet pun selesa, ada tempat nak shower skali sebelah tuh. 2nd class 5E depan office nurse. Nak panggil diorg senang je lepas tekan button. Cepat lah diorg datang. Malam tu memang tak leh tido. Risau kan baby. Just imagine, baby ditempatkan skali dengan I. First experience, pandai2 lah handle. Tp sebenarnye, bila ada baby, skills tu automatic je datang. Tiba2 I pandai breastfeed baby,  pandai basuh poo poo dia, salin baju kalau muntah. I banyak berzikir mlm tuh and cakap2 dengan baby. Hee.. Only bila dia terjaga la kan. Nak tunggu next day mcm kejap je. Dah pagi, mandi and prepare to breastfeed baby lagi. Walaupun time tu ade colostrum yg likat tuh aje, tp bagi je la kan. Dr dia berlapar. Tp bila dah masuk next day, rasa lambat je sbb tak sabar nak jumpa hubby and my parents. My parents tak jumpa lagi cucu diorg. Pagi tu lagi, Doc came to see me and nak check jahitan lagi. Uwaa.. Berjalan lagi. Thank God, it was okay and she confirmed if no issues with baby, hari ni boleh discharge. Yes!! So waktu visitor datang, my parents came. Happy betul diorg. Alhamdulillah. Then hubby came. I minta hubby tanya nurse kat depan if results baby dah keluar ke belum and I boleh discharge ke tak. Yes, on 2nd day tu jugak I boleh balik. Alhmdulillah.. Dipermudahkan. 

Bila discharge you need to go through 2 guards okay. Diorg akan tengok and confirmkan details mummy and baby before bg you jalan. Ya lah, to avoid case yg tak sepatutnya. Overall, Hospital Serdang adalah sangat okay. 

:: Week 38 Updates::

Alhamdulillah, entering week 39 in few days. Most of my friends, aunties said anak first kuar awal. Nampaknya, dia suka stay dlm perut. =) Nvm, sayang. Asalkan dia sentiasa sihat. Tgh2 malam ajak main. Tp movement tak lah sekuat sebelum ni. Cuma kene pastikan I keep track her movement. My perut dah jatuh, Doc cakap bahagian atas perut dah kosong and baby memang dah masuk birth canal. Nervous tapi excited!

Last week checkup HB low balik. Supplement selalu je makan. Memandangkan I tak lah suka sayur, so have to makan kurma banyak2. Masa awal2 pregnancy 1st and 2nd trimester, selalu je makan. Tp masuk 3rd tri macam malas nak top up dah kurma kat office. Oh ya, started 1st Apr hari tuh, dah start work from home. Mcm bosan pulak. Ikutkan nak je p office. Tp takut sakit nak bersalin nanti kene kat office. Sape susah nanti?

Okay, last checkup kat KPMC Dr sempat print gambar baby NR masa tengah smile. Tengah main agaknya? U know lah, bila p checkup at government, dapat scan bila kene jumpa doctor. Itupun kalau ada complication/ risk. Like mine that day, risk hb low p jumpa doctor. Tp time scan bukannya dapat tengok. One thing yang okay checkup at KKIA, details skit lah check up diorg.  But mcm biasa, tak larat nk tunggu lama2. Sometimes tertido. So far, I puas hati checkup at KPMC and KKIA. =)

Now her weight 2.8kilos. Doakan kami sentiasa sihat and selamat masa delivery process nanti. Sha minta maaf kalau Sha ada buat silap kat siapa2 secara sengaja atau tak sengaja. InsyaAllah, Sha akan blog or inform bila Sha dah deliver nanti. Ladies, take care!

::Short Update- 36 Weeks::

Completed my preps for delivery nanti. For both mummy and baby. Alhamdulillah. Semuanya dipermudahkan. I went for weekly checkup at KPMC with Dr Mimi. Alhamdulillah, baby okay but Dr bising skit I put on weight. 2 kilos in 1 week? Ishh. 19th checkup at gov 79.8 and last  Saturday on 23rd naik 81 pulak. Yes, I know. Berat I dah naik 12 kilos dah. Last few weeks ni, kuat makan jgn cakap. Dah tuh asik nk makan benda yang best je. Jalan dah malas. Perut dah rasa berat, cepat mengah, kaki cepat penat, dapat duduk je mcm heaven.   Dapat duduk then makan benda best, lg heaven. :P Berat baby dah 2.5kilos. Doc checked Alhamdulillah semua okay. Next week, Dr Mimi suggested jumpa Dr Anita or Dr Jamil.  Dr lain plak, as part of the procedure. Check up a week after that baru jumpa dia balik. Nowadays, tido mcm malas je bangun. Asalkan tak buat ape2 mesti nak landing atas katil. Part nak bangun tuh mak oi, lenguh kat pelvic tuh jgn ckap. Lenguh plus sakit2. Mcm ditekan2. Oh ya, my skin texture ntah ape2 ntah jadi. Oily sangat. Pigmentation jgn ckp. Skin tone lari. Pakai skincare yang biasa and compact yang biasa dah tak melekat. SKII , Safi rania, BB cream semua tak masuk dah. Ada yang cakap, semua ni sebab hormone changes. Lepas ni okay balik and sabar skit. Baiklah, hopefully my skin jd mcm tuh balik. I pergi Guardian cari Cleanser yang ada AHA, BHA, astrigent and Salyclic Acid. Sebab dulu penah jumpa Skin specialist, dia suggested cari product yang ada kandungan ni utk oily skin. Neutrogena ada. Tapi this time, I beli Hada Labo for  Cleanser and Garnier Astrigent. Dua2 ada kandungan tuh. Hopefully kurang minyak skit. Tinggal  nk cari Serum, and Sunblock yang okay.

Kesian kat NR, mcm boleh rasa ruang dah sempit for her to gerak2.  Every week sure I measure tinggi rahim and keliling perut. Tinggi rahim tu nurse yang ajar. This morning nak pakai baju kurung yang besar skit pun kain dah tak muat. Tak boleh nak cangkuk. Padahal bawah pusat tuh.Takpe skit je lagi. So have to recycle few dresses yang I ada. Itu je yg paling sesuai pakai time preggy dan juga leggings. 

Ada kawan cakap I dah look sarat. Heheheh.. Skit la kot. Muka I dah sembap. Double chin mcm dah jadi triple chin. Kaki dah bengkak skit2, sebab rasa pakai flats mcm dah ketat. Few jeans yang I masih boleh pakai masa pregnant, langsung tak leh pakai dah. Except jeggings, tp tu pun rasa mcm seksa skit nak pakai. 

Tak sabar nak shopping baju baru. Tp dengan harapan badan dpt kurus mcm dulu la yer!! 

:: Week 35 & Weekend Update::

Salam pretty! Hope you are doing fine. How was ur weekend? Last week, I tak buat mall exercise pun. Tak larat. Tired, lazy semua ada. Asyik nak baring je. I keluar pun pergi wedding my colleague, Ema. Late pregnancy mcm tu eh?  Here are some pix:

Schedule mcm lari skit hari tuh. Tapi takpa. At least makan and jumpa pengantin jugak.  

Now, I'm in my 35 weeks and entering my 36 weeks by end of week. Last Tuesday, I got my MGGT test result and went check up at government hospital. Urghhhh..penat tunggu lagi.  Dah malas nk pergi situ. Dengan nurse yang check mcm hampeh. Ishh... So the MGGT result okay. Alhamdullilah... Can't wait to meet Dr Mimi this Saturday. Hope baby doing okay. This Saturday nanti boleh tgk baby lagi, boleh tau berat dia berapa, boleh nampak ape dia tgh buat. :)

Owh ya, last Friday I got Braxton Hicks. Few times jugak, gap masa lambat. Kalau nk masuk labor kan gap dia 5 minutes apart kan. So I know lah false alarm.  Takkan la secepat tuh. 

Kalau lah I dapat simpan my feelings toward my baby masa dia dlm perut kan best. I banyak simpan gambar my baby bump and few videos of the movement. I miss this moment nanti. :(  I love my baby bump very much! I know nowadays rasa ngilu or sakit skit bila baby gerak, but I don't care. Asalkan dia gerak dah okay. Asalkan I nampak perut I gerak kiri kanan I happy. Asalkan I dapat cakap2 dgn my baby bump bila dia gerak pun I happy. I can't describe this feeling. I suka sangat2. 

See my perut, boooolat!! Hello NR! 

Lately sensitive melampau2. Tak sure apesal. That day singgah rumah mum, I changed la my outfit to kaftan. My sis tegur I sbb I pakai bj kaftan tu pun, I dah sedih. Boleh?? My mum ask my husband to send them to airport last Tuesday seawal 3.30am pun I sedih. Sedih sebab, kesian kat hubby penat 3 days non stop ada activity, meeting, seminar, induction, and jd MC lagi. Isshh, pelik. Padahal hubby no problem je. 

Last Friday,  saya terkesima (wah, ayat BM first class gitu) dengan satu statement from my friend, A. Another friend, B asked me whether I ada morning sickness / alahan during my pregnancy. The answer, Alhamdulillah no. Cuma I craving for Tomyam and tak suka pergi mall je. But then A cakap she got morning sickness. Then came the statement I should think not supposedly highlight or said in front of another pregnant woman. Where is your sensitivity! The statement was "Owh, siapa yang ada morning sickness ni anak dia bijak! I ada article dia, nanti tunjuk". Yes, that's the one. That's why I said terkesima. Okay, sad a bit sebab dia ckp mcm tuh dpn our friends. On the spot mood hilang nk berborak. Hello lady, another pregnant woman in front of you! And she never had morning sickness like you! Thanks to ALLAH permudahkan for me.  I personally think how genius your baby depends pada food apa your makan and what he/she will learn bila membesar. Sedih punya pasal, I straight mengadu to my sis, and here was her statement "Ckp kat kawan ko..don daniyal mak dia xde sickness..just penat2 jer..bijak je anak dia...". Mau tak tergelak statement ni yang dia bagi. I rasa baca Surah Lukman pun boleh buat anak bijak. More to terang hati. Amin. I asked my BFF which is 1 of the Doctor at HKL and another 1 pharmacist. They don't agreed at all with the statement. They said ridiculous, 1 of them  if tau which article and magazine nak sue somemore. ;) So we anggap, the lady got the article from Mastika.  Few blogger yang takde sickness, I tgk bijak je anak diorang. Scientific proof tak lah kuat mana. Even you guys Google pun and jumpa the articles yang relate to this, sure ada yang comment. They don't have morning sickness, but their kids are genius! For muslim, just pray to Allah semoga anak terang hati. Amin. Saya doakan anak kamu, kamu dan kamu yang baca blog ni pun sentiasa sihat, genius, and dgr cakap parents selalu. :)

Rasa mcm dah tak larat dah nk buat mall exercise. Lg 10% of baby list I tak complete kan lagi. I pesan kat hubby and my sis, kalau I tak larat sngt weekend nnti diorg je yang tolong pergi cari. I tak cari confinement set lagi. Thinking to buy Tanamera. Banyak good review. 

1st April, I will work from home. Nasib baik. But the shift hours changed lah. I need to work from 1-10pm. Memandangkan I stay kat rumah and ptg tak buat apa2, should be okay for me. 

4 weeks away, I can't wait to meet baby NR. Semoga ALLAH permudahkan segalanya. I dok fikir malam2 before tidur, nak prepare apa masa kat labor room nanti. Mental tu, apa yang kene fikir? I rasa dengan zikir, doa, dorongan hubby, think something nice and not to think about the pain will help me get through this process. Tapi sebenarnye sakit bersalin tuh mcmana? Mcm2 version I dengar. My mum plak I tanya, masa gave birth to me tak sakit and tak susah. Paling senang. Ada yang cakap masa push tuh tak sakit, yang sakit masa perineum koyak or episiotomy.  Ngeri plak dengar. ..